Sunday, September 12, 2010

Updates and Gender Stuff

Hey everybody,

Ha! Well even though it's been a little over a month ( Maybe more like two month. ), at least it hasn't been a year. ^-^

So what's new? A couple of things. My girlfriend and I just bought a computer together and we've been busy playing a couple of games on it. She's playing the Sims 3 and I,ve been playing StarCraft 2. ( I suck online so don,t ask me to add you or anything. Unless I already know you. )

I tell you, this thing is pretty sweet. It's not a super bomb, but it's pretty good. I'm pretty hopeful that we'll be able to play Diablo 3 as well. ( Hmph! Maybe it is a super bomb. I really don't know anymore. ) I just need to put my windows in english so that J can understand what's going on with Norton. ( J being my GF. ) Right now it's in french. It's got a Blu-ray player on it, but honestly, unless I hook up my PC on my TV, I don't think it'll serve much purpose.

Other than that, well we've just celebrated our first six months together. (Soon to be seven months. ) And also we're getting the hang of living together. ( And also getting the hang of time sharing the PC. ^-^Jokes. ) We've been living together since last May. But in all, everything between J and me are good. I thank my lucky stars that I have her in my life. Seriously, I don't think a lot of women would be able to handle a geek and a tranny all wrapped into one. But she's one of them, and she's great. I think she would even out-geek certain people I know. You should see some of the games she plays. ^w^ ( I think when I'm done with StarCraft, I might buy Dragon Age and see if it tickles her fancy. ) In any case, we seem to think that we were made for each other and that we're extremely lucky to have crossed our paths.

On the gender front, something happened a month and a half ago that made me question things. And again, the perpetual question of how should I be living my life resurfaced. But of course now, I have someone to consider regarding this decision. J loves both Naomi and Paul, so if either one had to go permanently she would be sad. ( Ugh! I'm still separating both genders as if they were 2 persons but they're not. I am Naomi and Paul. But it seems easier to talk about myself like this sometimes. Even for J. ) In any case, it's a big decision that can't be taken lightly. But one thing is for sure. I want to get rid of my bodily hair with laser hair removal. I'm sure I won't miss that. ^-^

Anyway, the thing that happened that brought upon this questioning is one of my friends wedding to which J and I attended and at which I was dressed up. As you know, pretty much all, if not everyone of my friends knows about my dressing up. So when I heard that this specific ceremony would be just friends, I figured that it would be okay if I showed up in the best dress I have. Everything was fine and dandy until we got to the door and saw my friend's soon to be husband. I don't now what it was, but the unreadable expression on his face made me doubt myself and I eeked out the question: "Is this ok?". J swore that she saw me drop down to two feet tall. ( And that's quite a feat considering I'm 5'11" tall nearly 6'. ^-^ ) He said that it was ok with him but he would have to check with his soon to be bride. J, in a pure act of chivalry asked: "And who are you?" To which he replied: "I'm the groom." Yes presentations were not even done at that point, and I asked if I could exist.

Cause it boils down to that really. Each time I'm asking "Is this okay?" or "Is the presence of Naomi okay?" it's as if I'm asking "Can I exist this way?" or " Can I be myself". And honestly, I'm tired of asking this question and it's gotten to a point where I don't ask anymore. I guess I just assumed that all my friends would be ok with it now. But like I heard in a movie once. Assumption is the mother of all fsckups. It turned out to be okay. The bride had no qualms with it and we got to have a good time anyway. But it could of become a very humiliating event for J and me. What would've happened if we had to turn tail. I guess I haven't thought up to that point really. But in any case, it begged the question of what should I do with this from now on.

J proposed an idea to me which I'm kinda of inclining to do. It would actually kill two birds with one stone really since I was planning on changing my e-mail eventually to better suite who I am. She put up the idea of sending a mass mail saying to everyone in my contact list that from now on, they would have to specify if they want my girl side to come or not. In other words, if they just send me invite and they don't specify if they want boy mode only, then I am free to choose whatever the frak I feel like showing up in. It's an interesting idea. However it makes me feel uneasy to the fact that they'll have some kind of power over me. But if I truly mean what I say when I say that I respect my friends fully, then I have to trust them with this decision until I decide to transition fully if transition there will be. Cause if I transition, there's only one way I'm going to present myself.

Interesting post-script to this story though. A month after the wedding, I ran into my friend that performed the ceremony. ( To which I tip my hat off because he was very good. ) I told him about the uneasiness that happened that day and that it turned out to be okay. He proceeded to ask if I felt like people were looking at me or if I felt the pressure of peering eyes at the wedding. I answered not really because I'm starting to get used to it in the grand public anyway. He mentioned to me that people who didn't know me at the wedding were asking questions as to whether I was a real woman or not. Which I take as a compliment in all honesty. Look, I know I'll never look a 100% like a real woman. Or rather I should say that I know people are gonna clue in that I'm a transvestite. However, if I'm able to make people do a double take and make them wonder: "Who's the sweedish girl?" as J would put it ^-^, then I feel like I won half the battle. So if by any chance you're reading this L, thanks for telling me this. That really made my day. ^-^ I guess it pays for me to go the extra mile to look good.

Wow. This was a long entry. I hope I didn't bore you gals and guys. ^-^ Like I said, I'm seriously considering doing that mass mail thing. I'm curious what it would do and also I'm not 100% sure this is the right course of action. If any of you reading have any suggestions, I'm all ears/eyes. But honestly, if I keep living this duality, I think I'll need to do it the way I said. But it feels tactless. Oh well. Guess I'll think about it some more.

Until then, this is me signing off.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Beauty is the Geek - 3D

Hey everybody,

Boy! It's true what they said about fashion. Clothes seem to come back in style after 20 years or so. And I think the same can be said about technology as well. Although it's probably not 20 years for tech. It's more like: "When e have the technology to make it better."

Or so is the case for 3D movies. But seriously though. Did we really need this? Raise your hand if you think it's a ploy by movie makers and theater owners to make people come back in the theaters. Raise your other hand if you recently went to see a 3D movie( *Cough* Avatar *Cough*. ) and thought that it was just a glorified View-Master with moving pictures. I do have one good thing to say about the 3D now. At least I don't have to watch the movies in a Red and Blue hue.

But again I pose the question. Was this really necessary? I think. for the most part, the reaosn that people aren't going to theaters anymore is because of the price. Seriously. Have you seen how much it costs to go to the movies now? Shit! If you have a family, you have to get a second mortgage just for a movie going experience. So I guess 3D is kinda cool cause it gives people an added incentive to watch a movie on the silver screen. Oh but wait. The glasses aren't included in the regular price of admission. They charge an extra 3 to 4$ per head. Can we say rip off?!?! But at least it's still optional. They usually have two versions in most theaters. And I guess for some people, it does add to their movie going experience. So why the hell not?

But the problem lies in the fact that it created a fad. So much so that we now have 3D televisions on the way. Ark! They're already here. Seriously? Do we really need 3DTVs? And to be able to watch it you're going to need a special 3D Blue-ray player. ( Because apparently, a regular Blue-ray can't project or create 3D images. ) And let's not forget the glasses which are 100 to 200$ a head. So if you've only got one pair of glasses, guess who's not watching? That's right, your wife or husband or friend or whoever. ( Penny Arcade and Jefbot clearly made their point on this. ^-^ ) And they are not brand interchangeable. Which means that if I buy a 3DTV from Sony and one of my friends buys one from Samsung, he won't be able to watch my TV with his glasses. I can just imagine how much it's going to cost a guy just so him and his buddies can watch the big game. Which of course means you 'll have to spend extra for a special TV decoder or something to watch sports in 3D. Commercialism at it's best sirs.

But people. All of this is a fad. When everybody, or rather most everybody, ( 'Cause I pray that not everybody is stupid enough to give in to this. ) will have a 3DTV with a 3D Blue-ray, that's when 3D movies will stop showing in theaters. And when that happens, it will slowly mean the death of 3D content for your 3D television. Because let's face it. The reason why movie makers and theaters want you to come back in theaters isn't only because of piracy. ( Mind you it's not helping. ) It's because more and more people are getting home theater systems. And with the advent of HD, there really isn't any reason to go see a movie at the theaters anymore. A family person will probably opt for the 30$ it will cost him to buy a DVD movie and a popcorn instead of forking over 50$ to go to the movies. Heck, it's even less then 30$ if you go for a rental.

Look, some of you might say that I'm wrong and this isn't just a fad. I can honestly say his to you though. Only time will tell. But if we can learn anything from the iPhone, is that there's always a better model coming out. I suggest that instead of giving in to the craze, wait it out and see if it's viable. Show companies that you won't spend your hard earned cash on just about anything.

Even Sony and Micro$oft, despite knowing that 3DTVs were coming, didn't announce anything for their home consoles. And even though Nintendo announced the 3DS, they haven't done anything of the like for the Wii. My geeky brethren, I say wait.

Until then, this is me signing off!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

I'm back!!!

Hey everybody,

I don't know why, but suddenly I'm back. I'm having this crazy urge to write again. Why is this? I have no clue. And why exactly one year after my last entry? ( Or pretty much a year. ) I still don't know.

It's just today I felt like buying a Hilroy book and just write in it, which I'm transferring now to this blog.

So what's going on with me? Nothing and everything I guess. I'm still a transvestite if you were wondering. I have no plans on getting/starting a transition soon, but I'm seriously considering laser hair removal. ( Hmm, feels like I've said this before. ) I've been going steady with this wonderful girl lately for almost five months now. She's already moved into my... correction. Our place. ( I've been trying to make it as much her place as it is mine. ) Best of all, she accepts me the way that I am. ( And she loves the fact that I'm a transvestite too. ^_~ )

Seriously. I don't think I could've gotten a better match though. She loves videogames just like I do. Even played PC games I've never heard of. And she's totally into my girl side. In fact, she would be very sad if I decided to hang up my heels... so to speak. So yeah, you could say that I'm very lucky to have met her. Of course she'd say that she's not a rare bird. But honestly, I think she is. I mean she's a geeky girl who likes transvestites. What else could a g33ky tr4nny ask for. ^-^

But this isn't the reason why I'm inspired to write again. ( Although, it could be a reason in itself trust me. ) Like I said earlier. I just don't know why. Of course there is something that I saw the other day that I wanted to give my opinion about. But I'll leave that for my next entry. And I'll where this writing blitz will lead me to as well. I still don't have a grasp of blogger and I'm not able to put pictures up like I'd like to. But I guess I'll just have to concentrate on my writing to make it more interesting. And I'd like the layout to be different then this but... meh. I guess I'll just have to make with.

Anyway, I don't want to make promises like last time. But I'll try to write here more then once or twice a year. ¬_¬

Until then, this is me signing off.