Dragons and Assassins and Xboxes. Oh my!!!

Hey all,

So yeah, back in septembre I got the Red Ring of Death on my 360. Or rather the E74 message of dread. Simply put, my Xbox died on me. J proposed to me that I send it in an get it repaired, but i argued that it would be better if we bought a new one since my old roommate did that with is 360 and had to send it in again a couple of months after it came back.

So I bought the new and sleeker 360 slim model. I just love it. ^-^ And I bought a bundle that Best Buy did back in November. It was basically the Xbox holiday bundle packed with Forza 3 and Alan Wake but Best Buy added Assassins Creed 2 with it. When I saw they had that I went straight to the store with the circular in hand and said to the clerk: "I want this!" while pointing to the special in question. I also bought Dragon Age: Origins with it so that J could try it out.

Let me tell you. It feels good to be gaming again after a month and a half hiatus. As expected, J loved DA. ( She just finished it last friday. ) And I loved AC2. ( Which I finished a couple of weeks before the holidays. I've started a game of DA myself. ) I also got around to play Limbo on Xbox Live Arcade which is probably the best game to come out on XLA this year. We also bought the Kinect with a couple of games which is pretty awesome. We got Kinect Adventures and Dance Central. DC is good, KA not so much though. And just this week-end I bought Borderlands and The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. I got the game of the year edition for both of them.

So basically, I guess my only goal with this post is to reaffirm my love for video games and also to say that, for the exception of Kinect Adventures that isn't that good and Forza 3 that I haven't tried yet, you should try every game I mentioned and thank me later. That is all. ^-^

Assassins Creed 2: 4.3 Thumbs up

Dragon Age: 4.3 Thumbs up

Borderlands: 4 Thumbs up

Oblivion: 4 Thumbs up

Limbo: 4.5 Thumbs up

Dance Central: 4 Thumbs up

Alan Wake: 3.8 Thumbs up

Until then, this is me signing off.

Updates and Gender Stuff

Hey everybody,

Ha! Well even though it's been a little over a month ( Maybe more like two month. ), at least it hasn't been a year. ^-^

So what's new? A couple of things. My girlfriend and I just bought a computer together and we've been busy playing a couple of games on it. She's playing the Sims 3 and I,ve been playing StarCraft 2. ( I suck online so don,t ask me to add you or anything. Unless I already know you. )

I tell you, this thing is pretty sweet. It's not a super bomb, but it's pretty good. I'm pretty hopeful that we'll be able to play Diablo 3 as well. ( Hmph! Maybe it is a super bomb. I really don't know anymore. ) I just need to put my windows in english so that J can understand what's going on with Norton. ( J being my GF. ) Right now it's in french. It's got a Blu-ray player on it, but honestly, unless I hook up my PC on my TV, I don't think it'll serve much purpose.

Other than that, well we've just celebrated our first six months together. (Soon to be seven months. ) And also we're getting the hang of living together. ( And also getting the hang of time sharing the PC. ^-^Jokes. ) We've been living together since last May. But in all, everything between J and me are good. I thank my lucky stars that I have her in my life. Seriously, I don't think a lot of women would be able to handle a geek and a tranny all wrapped into one. But she's one of them, and she's great. I think she would even out-geek certain people I know. You should see some of the games she plays. ^w^ ( I think when I'm done with StarCraft, I might buy Dragon Age and see if it tickles her fancy. ) In any case, we seem to think that we were made for each other and that we're extremely lucky to have crossed our paths.

On the gender front, something happened a month and a half ago that made me question things. And again, the perpetual question of how should I be living my life resurfaced. But of course now, I have someone to consider regarding this decision. J loves both Naomi and Paul, so if either one had to go permanently she would be sad. ( Ugh! I'm still separating both genders as if they were 2 persons but they're not. I am Naomi and Paul. But it seems easier to talk about myself like this sometimes. Even for J. ) In any case, it's a big decision that can't be taken lightly. But one thing is for sure. I want to get rid of my bodily hair with laser hair removal. I'm sure I won't miss that. ^-^

Anyway, the thing that happened that brought upon this questioning is one of my friends wedding to which J and I attended and at which I was dressed up. As you know, pretty much all, if not everyone of my friends knows about my dressing up. So when I heard that this specific ceremony would be just friends, I figured that it would be okay if I showed up in the best dress I have. Everything was fine and dandy until we got to the door and saw my friend's soon to be husband. I don't now what it was, but the unreadable expression on his face made me doubt myself and I eeked out the question: "Is this ok?". J swore that she saw me drop down to two feet tall. ( And that's quite a feat considering I'm 5'11" tall nearly 6'. ^-^ ) He said that it was ok with him but he would have to check with his soon to be bride. J, in a pure act of chivalry asked: "And who are you?" To which he replied: "I'm the groom." Yes presentations were not even done at that point, and I asked if I could exist.

Cause it boils down to that really. Each time I'm asking "Is this okay?" or "Is the presence of Naomi okay?" it's as if I'm asking "Can I exist this way?" or " Can I be myself". And honestly, I'm tired of asking this question and it's gotten to a point where I don't ask anymore. I guess I just assumed that all my friends would be ok with it now. But like I heard in a movie once. Assumption is the mother of all fsckups. It turned out to be okay. The bride had no qualms with it and we got to have a good time anyway. But it could of become a very humiliating event for J and me. What would've happened if we had to turn tail. I guess I haven't thought up to that point really. But in any case, it begged the question of what should I do with this from now on.

J proposed an idea to me which I'm kinda of inclining to do. It would actually kill two birds with one stone really since I was planning on changing my e-mail eventually to better suite who I am. She put up the idea of sending a mass mail saying to everyone in my contact list that from now on, they would have to specify if they want my girl side to come or not. In other words, if they just send me invite and they don't specify if they want boy mode only, then I am free to choose whatever the frak I feel like showing up in. It's an interesting idea. However it makes me feel uneasy to the fact that they'll have some kind of power over me. But if I truly mean what I say when I say that I respect my friends fully, then I have to trust them with this decision until I decide to transition fully if transition there will be. Cause if I transition, there's only one way I'm going to present myself.

Interesting post-script to this story though. A month after the wedding, I ran into my friend that performed the ceremony. ( To which I tip my hat off because he was very good. ) I told him about the uneasiness that happened that day and that it turned out to be okay. He proceeded to ask if I felt like people were looking at me or if I felt the pressure of peering eyes at the wedding. I answered not really because I'm starting to get used to it in the grand public anyway. He mentioned to me that people who didn't know me at the wedding were asking questions as to whether I was a real woman or not. Which I take as a compliment in all honesty. Look, I know I'll never look a 100% like a real woman. Or rather I should say that I know people are gonna clue in that I'm a transvestite. However, if I'm able to make people do a double take and make them wonder: "Who's the sweedish girl?" as J would put it ^-^, then I feel like I won half the battle. So if by any chance you're reading this L, thanks for telling me this. That really made my day. ^-^ I guess it pays for me to go the extra mile to look good.

Wow. This was a long entry. I hope I didn't bore you gals and guys. ^-^ Like I said, I'm seriously considering doing that mass mail thing. I'm curious what it would do and also I'm not 100% sure this is the right course of action. If any of you reading have any suggestions, I'm all ears/eyes. But honestly, if I keep living this duality, I think I'll need to do it the way I said. But it feels tactless. Oh well. Guess I'll think about it some more.

Until then, this is me signing off.

Beauty is the Geek - 3D

Hey everybody,

Boy! It's true what they said about fashion. Clothes seem to come back in style after 20 years or so. And I think the same can be said about technology as well. Although it's probably not 20 years for tech. It's more like: "When e have the technology to make it better."

Or so is the case for 3D movies. But seriously though. Did we really need this? Raise your hand if you think it's a ploy by movie makers and theater owners to make people come back in the theaters. Raise your other hand if you recently went to see a 3D movie( *Cough* Avatar *Cough*. ) and thought that it was just a glorified View-Master with moving pictures. I do have one good thing to say about the 3D now. At least I don't have to watch the movies in a Red and Blue hue.

But again I pose the question. Was this really necessary? I think. for the most part, the reaosn that people aren't going to theaters anymore is because of the price. Seriously. Have you seen how much it costs to go to the movies now? Shit! If you have a family, you have to get a second mortgage just for a movie going experience. So I guess 3D is kinda cool cause it gives people an added incentive to watch a movie on the silver screen. Oh but wait. The glasses aren't included in the regular price of admission. They charge an extra 3 to 4$ per head. Can we say rip off?!?! But at least it's still optional. They usually have two versions in most theaters. And I guess for some people, it does add to their movie going experience. So why the hell not?

But the problem lies in the fact that it created a fad. So much so that we now have 3D televisions on the way. Ark! They're already here. Seriously? Do we really need 3DTVs? And to be able to watch it you're going to need a special 3D Blue-ray player. ( Because apparently, a regular Blue-ray can't project or create 3D images. ) And let's not forget the glasses which are 100 to 200$ a head. So if you've only got one pair of glasses, guess who's not watching? That's right, your wife or husband or friend or whoever. ( Penny Arcade and Jefbot clearly made their point on this. ^-^ ) And they are not brand interchangeable. Which means that if I buy a 3DTV from Sony and one of my friends buys one from Samsung, he won't be able to watch my TV with his glasses. I can just imagine how much it's going to cost a guy just so him and his buddies can watch the big game. Which of course means you 'll have to spend extra for a special TV decoder or something to watch sports in 3D. Commercialism at it's best sirs.

But people. All of this is a fad. When everybody, or rather most everybody, ( 'Cause I pray that not everybody is stupid enough to give in to this. ) will have a 3DTV with a 3D Blue-ray, that's when 3D movies will stop showing in theaters. And when that happens, it will slowly mean the death of 3D content for your 3D television. Because let's face it. The reason why movie makers and theaters want you to come back in theaters isn't only because of piracy. ( Mind you it's not helping. ) It's because more and more people are getting home theater systems. And with the advent of HD, there really isn't any reason to go see a movie at the theaters anymore. A family person will probably opt for the 30$ it will cost him to buy a DVD movie and a popcorn instead of forking over 50$ to go to the movies. Heck, it's even less then 30$ if you go for a rental.

Look, some of you might say that I'm wrong and this isn't just a fad. I can honestly say his to you though. Only time will tell. But if we can learn anything from the iPhone, is that there's always a better model coming out. I suggest that instead of giving in to the craze, wait it out and see if it's viable. Show companies that you won't spend your hard earned cash on just about anything.

Even Sony and Micro$oft, despite knowing that 3DTVs were coming, didn't announce anything for their home consoles. And even though Nintendo announced the 3DS, they haven't done anything of the like for the Wii. My geeky brethren, I say wait.

Until then, this is me signing off!

I'm back!!!

Hey everybody,

I don't know why, but suddenly I'm back. I'm having this crazy urge to write again. Why is this? I have no clue. And why exactly one year after my last entry? ( Or pretty much a year. ) I still don't know.

It's just today I felt like buying a Hilroy book and just write in it, which I'm transferring now to this blog.

So what's going on with me? Nothing and everything I guess. I'm still a transvestite if you were wondering. I have no plans on getting/starting a transition soon, but I'm seriously considering laser hair removal. ( Hmm, feels like I've said this before. ) I've been going steady with this wonderful girl lately for almost five months now. She's already moved into my... correction. Our place. ( I've been trying to make it as much her place as it is mine. ) Best of all, she accepts me the way that I am. ( And she loves the fact that I'm a transvestite too. ^_~ )

Seriously. I don't think I could've gotten a better match though. She loves videogames just like I do. Even played PC games I've never heard of. And she's totally into my girl side. In fact, she would be very sad if I decided to hang up my heels... so to speak. So yeah, you could say that I'm very lucky to have met her. Of course she'd say that she's not a rare bird. But honestly, I think she is. I mean she's a geeky girl who likes transvestites. What else could a g33ky tr4nny ask for. ^-^

But this isn't the reason why I'm inspired to write again. ( Although, it could be a reason in itself trust me. ) Like I said earlier. I just don't know why. Of course there is something that I saw the other day that I wanted to give my opinion about. But I'll leave that for my next entry. And I'll where this writing blitz will lead me to as well. I still don't have a grasp of blogger and I'm not able to put pictures up like I'd like to. But I guess I'll just have to concentrate on my writing to make it more interesting. And I'd like the layout to be different then this but... meh. I guess I'll just have to make with.

Anyway, I don't want to make promises like last time. But I'll try to write here more then once or twice a year. ¬_¬

Until then, this is me signing off.

F4I1!!!1!!!!1!1!!.... And other stuff.

Hey everybody,

So yeah, seems I didn't make good on my promise to post once a week. But in my defense, I've had blogger's cramp. ( Or blogger's block. Whatever. ) I've seem to have run out of things to talk about, and yet with my life style, I should be writing your eyes off. ( As opposed to talking your ears off of course. ^w^ ) Maybe it's because I don't know where to start writing. Also, this is a new beginning and I hate that. The fact that I had to quit my first blog really pissed of. ( Again, thanks you M$. ) I sorta had my identity set over there and now I feel I have to start over. It's like I'm creating a sort of pressure on myself.

Also, the fact that I have to learn how blogger works bites as well. Don't get me wrong, it's nice place... if you're über good at HTML. Kinda why I liked MSN spaces. It was cookie cuter, but darn it, it didn't take long before you got used to what you wanted to do. But they changed a couple of things there though and I'm sorta back to square one. Oh well, I guess I've ranted long enough.

So what's been going on in my life. Well nothing much if not a lot of things. ( Yeah, I know that doesn't make sense. But keep in mind that I don't feel like everything in my life is blog worthy or actually all that exciting. ) Since last time I blogged though, I've had a lot more courage to go out now. ( Dressed up I mean. ) I'm able to take the bus and subway without giving a second thought to people. I guess this started during my vacation when I went on a shopping spree while I was dressed up. Alone.

It's something that I had planned for a while now and never got around to do it. You see I've decided that my best chance of survival was to do this during a week day when most people are usually at work and not shopping. But it's quite surprising to see the number of people in mall during the week day. It's not crazy like the evenings or weekends. But there is a lot of people. Kinda makes you wonder how they get their money. In any case, I got to the mall and everything was quite uneventful. The clerks were very courteous with me. The girl at Aditionnelle was very nice, but that's probably due to the fact that her brother is actually a dragqueen. So seeing me wasn't much of a problem for her. Still, points for her. ^-^ I guess people were probably going: 'WTF!' in their minds, but I was too busy jubilating to notice. Also, I wasn't looking at them to see or get a reaction. I just went there existing like anybody would do. ( Don't know if what I just said makes sense, but it does to me. I guess I could extrapolate eventually. ) That being said, I tried to look my best though.

And I guess you're wondering about why I'm comfortable in the bus now. Well, it's because to go there, I have to take two buses. So four buses in total. You see, before I wanted to go someplace dressed, I always used to grab a cab. But it got expensive. Especially if you're going for a night out and you spend half of your money on cab fair. ( Of course, I always take a cab back home after a night out. For me, that's just common sense. Especially at 3am in the morn. ) I remember, it would cost me 50$ just to go down town. So for my outing at the mall. I decided I would take the bus. I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone. Get the courage to go out at a public place that's not the village, and also get the courage to grab the bus and subway.

Since then, anytime I've wanted to dress and I needed to go some place public, I just did. I've went to breakfast for my friends birthday up in a restaurant that most northern to the island. ( For those of you who know Montreal, that very far form the village. ^w^ ) And for another friend's birthday, I actually walked into a pub. Yeah, I'm still surprised about that one. ^-^ So more and more, I'm actually getting the courage to be myself where ever I want to be. Now if I can only get the courage to go into the bathroom. :P

I'll try to do more posts soon. Although that's highly unlikely. I mean Ghostbusters: The Videogame is coming out this tuesday and you can bet your paycheck that I'm going to get my grubby little mitts on it. Plus I'm going to need a new Xbox Live membership card. So I'll be buying those tuesday. Also my rents are coming over the week after. I can't wait to see them, but they're going to be here for like three weeks or something and during that time, I have to put my feminin ways on the side. They accept it, but they're not to see me dressed though. I just hope one day they'll be ok with it. Anyways, I've typed your eyes off too much already. I need to go now.

Until then, this is me signing off.

Intro, presentation and salutations.

Hey all,

This I! The lovely Naomi-Paul Poru. Back from more then a years hiatus.

You don't recognise me? Of course you do! I used to write blogs on my old site Paul's blog! and also on Naomi's space. Yes both are indeed my sites and no I don't have a splits personnality. ( At least not that I know of. ) Both blogs had to do with two of my personnality traits that I didn't want to mix before. But since I'm too lazy to hold two seperate blogs, and also because my original blog has gone to shits ville. ( Thanks M$. ) Added to the fact that I've come to the realisation that I am indeed a TV/TG geek, I've decided to create this new blog which combines these two very different, yet defining aspects of myself. Basically, I'm asking you to follow me if you will in my mindless self indulgence. ( Some of you did for almost two years. Why should it be any different now. ^-^ )

For those of you just tuning in to my universe, ( Or don't have a clue about what the frack I'm talking about. ) let me give you a brief description. Hi, my name is Naomi-Paul and I am a transvestite, with strong leanings towards being a transgenderer, that just happens to like geeky stuff. If you want more simplification. I'm sometimes a girly girl who likes movies, roleplaying games, videogames, anime and comics... with a penis. ( Can't get more simple than this. In fact, it's quite the vulgarized version. ) If you have a problem with who I am, then please, direct your attention to the red square with a white 'X' in it at the top right corner of your browser. Or clickety click here and please don't bother me anymore. If you're still here, then come and stay a while.

What's to be expected from this blog is quite simple. Pretty much the same content as in Paul's Blog!, ( I.E. Pseudo game and movie reviews. Presentations of stuff that I think is cool. My opinions on certain subjects. ) with a little more than a soupçon of Naomi's space. ( Which will basically be stuff that touches on Transgender related topics and my adventures in gender land. Don't worry, nothing too explicite will be divulged. Not so much because I don't want to be graphic but rather I'm not the type pf person that talks about her sexual escapades. You know what I'm talking about. We all know someone like that. ^-^ ) I'm also planning on having a Youtube channel with the same name. I'm not sure at what frenquency I'll be making videos, but at least it should serve as a portal to come in contact with different videos made by trans sisters or brothers. ( Either transvestites or transsexual. I don't even care really. We're all somewhat on the same boat. ) So this way, if a gender confused teen that happens to be a geek comes across my site, at least they'll be able to see that he or she is not alone. And at the same time, if I am able to raise a little awareness about transgendered related topics to the geek community, then I'll be a happy camper. Although truth be told, if my friends are any indicator as to how the geek community react to the transgender community, then I must say that I am proud to call myself a geek. We seem to be quite an open group of people. ( I don't know if it has something to do with the fact that both groups are somewhat persecuted by the jocks..... I should totally stop throwing lables out like that. -_-' )

So if you're interest is still peeked and you can't wait to read future blogs, I thank you deeply. If you're an admirer and you're just here to see pics of me, then I thank you as well but I have to warn you that pics will not be updated much. ( Unless I see that there's a market for it, in which case I might be tempted into buying a digital cam to take more photos. ) I'll try to put my gamer tag here soon. This will necessitate a name change to my existing gamer tag to fit the name here, so you'll be able to see my avatar on Xbox Live and add me to your friends list if you want. ( I warn you right away, I'm not super good though. ) So yeah, that's about it for now. I'll try to come up with something new to write soon. My goal is to update my blog at least once a week. Heh, I know I maybe dreaming by setting this itinerary, but it's one of my goals I set for myself. ( Watch it be destroyed by the fact that I play to much games. Or because I'm a slacker. Or simply because it takes me two fracking hours to shave before I dress up. I meant the whole body of course. :P )

In any case, thanks again for being here and stay tune for more. ^-^

Until then, this is me signing off.